Miss Gender

the body I have
the body I work with

I mirror
what's inside

to be recognized

I take pills
I pluck hair
I wear accessories
I have chest and hip growth
I endure surgery

after deliberate effort
I enter your office

flower patterned crop top
deep red lipstick
elegant snake necklace
dangling earrings

I've been in your office many times
you know my pronouns

yet you struggle
to use them

you say it's hard
you see my presentation

what you don't see
follows me home

the heavy voices
pushing down on me
forcing me to the floor
chanting arms grab
pulling me in

      HE    HE

the hours
days sometimes
spent getting
back up

after you

misgender me.